Is it crazy?

Is it crazy?
To wake up in the early hours
The rest of the family
Still deep in slumber
And steal a look at you,
So serene and peaceful
In the early morning sunlight
Streaming through the window
 
I drink in your loveliness
The dark tufts of hair
The gentle up and down of your chest
My finger gently caressing your cheek
As you breathe peacefully in your sleep
The scent of baby skin
Milky and sweaty
Your tiny hands curled upwards in sweet surrender
 
This time we have together is fleeting
A version of you that will be gone too soon
The surge of love that threatens
To break through my wall
Cascading through my heart
With pure tears of joy
Through the misty haze of tiredness
 
I long to freeze this moment in time
To hold onto the beauty of your smallness
Delicate, soft, tender yet tenacious life
Joy at was is
And grief of what will be gone forever
Too soon
 
The ‘riot in my heart’
That is love
Remains forever
 
 
Lecco, August 2019

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